At school I met Laura, she told me that she wanted to live in a different country and completely rely on herself.

When she said that, I thought and felt that I couldn't relate at all, but I couldn't put this into words back then. All my life I feel I have relied on myself. In the financial sense though, only recently I have supported myself a little on my own, otherwise I have depend financially on my Mom and Aunt. But the early self reliance I'm talking about is a sense of direction, behavior, etc. that I feel I decided on by myself. I'm just saying that the direction from my Mom was small. 

That night the way she spoke got to me. It seemed elegant and with just the right amount of trust and favor. That was the big thing that she wanted, this self reliance, she told me. 

I later made mistakes regarding her. I would enjoy talking to her again.