At school I met Laura, she told me that she wanted to live in a different country and completely rely on herself.

When she said that, I thought and felt that I couldn't relate at all, but I couldn't put this into words back then. All my life I feel I have relied on myself. In the financial sense though, only recently I have supported myself a little on my own, otherwise I have depend financially on my Mom and Aunt. But the early self reliance I'm talking about is a sense of direction, behavior, etc. that I feel I decided on by myself. I'm just saying that the direction from my Mom was small. 

That night the way she spoke got to me. It seemed elegant and with just the right amount of trust and favor. That was the big thing that she wanted, this self reliance, she told me. 

I later made mistakes regarding her. I would enjoy talking to her again. 

Humor

You know it's come to an end when:
From inside of a Starbucks you can see another Starbucks out the window.
Same thing goes for McDonald's.


With humor don't be Pierrot.

On Belmont there is a big billboard that says, I got it at NLU, all I want to do is spray paint, what herpes?, right across the whole thing.

Better Dead Than Red. Which is not true by the way.

There's no need for me to play video games, I often drive the streets of Chicago.

"Push the floor until I get tired!" some of my army humor.

"OregAno, what the hell" The Marge Simpson quote I think of whenver I look at some spieces.

Music and Videos

I feel better when I don't watch videos or listen to music. I'm very far away from creating either and so taking in these things makes me feel and think kind of bad. It can be aggravating when you think "I can't even come close to creating a very small part of these movies and songs, these works of art, that I appreciate so very very much."

It can be hard to go through your day without being exposed to either.

I am going to learn how to play the piano next, even before any kind of trips. Before languages.
This is how much I value music. Specifically:
I love music and other things, media, that feels modern
I love it. Older stuff is good too, but it lacks modernity that I like so much.

Writing and Pictures

I actually was able to do produce these things in my life, unlike the other stuff.

My big idea for google

My big ideas for Google, their 10^100 $10 mil  contest.

1)The Painful Pointed Economic Inequality here in the US
Class revolution
I most want to focus on economic social stratification and on economics when I enter law school.
How about finding out how much money the rich donate to such causes, if at all, and then force them to? Shame the rich?

2) Starving People everywhere
go to Africa/World and help people
with your military background
Children Starving
Im mostly done thinking about the starving around the world, and me donating money.
But what about the starving in Africa, and the Middle East?


Notes---------------------------------
my ideas are exceedingly superficial for this project
do they have to be that severe?

publicity: just use this money to run TV/Internet/News Paper ads to get people to:
at least not vote Republican for anything, ever